Today I am going to cover the subject of avoidance with anxiety. Some sufferers have a real problem with this, some hardly at all, but I think everyone can get something out of this message.
Avoidance can take many forms; some people may avoid social situations, driving, the supermarket, answering the phone. Some may turn down invites to meet with friends, not go for the job they want or not join that evening class they so want to go to.
The person who falls into avoidance behaviour restricts their own life due to becoming a prisoner to how they are thinking and feeling. They may find doing things too much effort and or not want to face triggering the anxiety that’s within them, and so they find it easier to avoid.
The above was me, and at the time I thought that I had to work out the magic formula and then I would feel normal and have my life back. The problem was that I did not know how to feel normal again, I had tried everything, read every book, tried every technique given to me and yet nothing had worked. So I was stuck in this continual pattern of avoidance.
I then realised that the outside was not going to change for me, it would just keep spinning the same while I shied away from it. I realised that there was no knowledge out there that was going to make everything OK. No day would arrive where I could just step outside and carry on with my life as before without feeling uncomfortable.
I realised by hiding away I was only strengthening the problem, I was continuing to send the message to my subconscious mind that there was danger in the outside world and social situations. I realised that the only way out was to start conveying it a different message, one that taught it that everything was OK out there.
I concluded that the best way to break out of these old avoidance patterns was to ‘Do everything I did before I had anxiety’ this meant allowing myself to feel uncomfortable until I no longer did.
Listen to wisdom and not the voice of anxiety
Even though now I was putting myself out there more, it was like there was a little voice in my head that would try and keep me safe by telling me not to go here or there and not to put myself in certain situations.
This voice was my mind talking to me and trying to keep me safe, this is a built-in system within everyone, and it acts on what information it receives. But the information it received from me previously was faulty; I had no reason to avoid the outside.
So if this voice was faulty, then it had no truth to it, and so I just needed to ignore it and do it anyway. In doing this, I would eventually silence that voice.
If you avoid certain places, then your mind registers this and files it under dangerous and will kindly let you know the next time you are in that situation, what a great operating system ! Well it is until we send it the wrong messages.
Understanding your inner voice
Someone without anxiety may have been fine with dogs, until one day they get bitten.
If this person then goes straight back out there and doesn’t start avoiding places where they may encounter dogs, then the reaction may still be present but not too much of a problem.
If on the other hand, this person then goes on to avoid dogs and any place where they may encounter them, then the mind would then pick up on this threat and registered as a severe one due to your behaviour of avoidance.
The inner voice would then be overprotective and fearful and guide you to make sure you never encountered one, and if you did you did, then you would feel an intense fear reaction. The mind has picked up on the threat and is now keeping you safe and telling you to get the hell out of there.
Do you now see how the mind picks up and reacts to the information we are sending it? It is not a reaction to the actual situation, only what you have made of it. It is picking up on the information it receives from you as to how high its reaction needs to be to keep you safe.
This understanding is what freed me of my avoidance, as I now understood why I felt the way I did and why I had such a reaction to the harmless situations I had previously avoided. I now understood that these reactions were not merited and I was just being tricked by my mind’s response and not the reality of the situation I found myself in.
My wisdom had finally shone through, and I now realised that there was no actual danger in these situations and eventually through my action of non-avoidance my mind would get this message too and so turn down its overbearing response.
Learning to reprogram the brain
So as you can see it is us that has created this false programming in our mind through our past actions, which is great news as now we can be the ones to reprogram it by changing how we behave.
The old subconscious programming in our mind will still have a certain pull to it and will try and keep us in these old patterns. This is because our mind still has our best interests at heart and believes by keeping us in old habits it is doing us a favour.
Even with this understanding, it is at this point where many people may fall back into old patterns of behaviour that are not serving them. They do so because trying to come out of old behaviours feels uncomfortable and so it is easier to stay on the old path.
But all that is happening is that your rational mind has got this understanding, but your subconscious hasn’t and so you feel uncomfortable when you try and step out of these old behaviours.
If you understand what is happening, then you are more able to allow yourself to feel uncomfortable and see that this is part of the process of reprogramming your mind. All you have to do is see it as growth and that you can’t create any true inner change without some discomfort.
Many people say to me ‘I got this last week and started to change and go out more, but now I’ve fallen back into my old behaviours of avoidance.’
I tell them the same thing that the subconscious mind takes a lot longer to get it than the rational mind and so it will try and pull you back into old behaviours, acknowledge that pull but do it anyway. In time the subconscious mind will get it, and the pull will leave you.
There is no big secret to changing this; it is all about understanding what is going on., I just finally understand that it was me that had created this problem and only a change in my behaviour was going to solve it.
I just stopped listening to this inner voice and so from now if the phone went off, I answered it every time, anxious or not.
If I got invited out to any social gathering, then I would go, even if my inner voice tried to warn me about what would go wrong.
If a neighbour approached then I would no longer follow my inner voice or emotions and rush to get back inside, I would walk right up and chat.
That inner voice and my emotions continued to try and keep me safe, but I just thanked them for doing their job and told them through my actions that I was perfectly fine, knowing they would get the message soon.
In time this inner voice and the emotional reactions left me. I slowly, but surely reprogrammed my subconscious mind and emptied it of all its old fears and beliefs and was now free to go anywhere with no problems whatsoever.
The journey was quite exciting, seeing my life come back slowly, but surely, I even got a thrill out of testing myself and seeing how fearless I could be while watching the progress I was making.
I will finish with a famous quote by Vincent van Gogh
If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced
How very true !