I have just posted this and my Facebook page, I hope it helps in some way.
Complete allowing is the way out of anxiety and all the other symptoms that go with it. Be it intrusive thoughts, panic, restlessness, anxiety, irritability, feelings of detachment. All this is created by months and maybe years of worry and your body and mind is then full of excess negative/anxious energy. This is why you feel the way you do, forget all these labels that are given out.
The only way out of this is to then release it all. Fighting, suppressing, constantly analysing and trying to control it won’t work and can only give small pockets of temporary relief at best, it can never truly fix the problem. So why do we spend so long trying to fix, suppress and fight these feelings? We do so because our mind is a survival machine and it wants rid of these feelings, it screams ‘Do something, I don’t want to feel this way’ so we go around in circles changing meds, seeing counsellors, reading books, self- analysing, trying different techniques, anything not to feel this way.
This cycle can become a lifetime pursuit for many, the further they fall, the more they search for that elusive answer and the harder they battle to get better, not knowing it is this that is causing them to sink further.
The reason we get nowhere and in many cases sink further is because we have never allowed ourselves to feel this negative/anxious energy present within our mind and body, so it has never had the chance to escape our inner space, it’s a vicious cycle when not seen.
When you see things for yourself it takes on a whole new meaning
On my blog, you get people who have truly seen it and they flow with knowledge and understanding, they truly allowed all the inner grot to surface and are now recovered. They did so because they did not just see my words, more that my words resonated with them on a deep level, they truly saw it for themselves. You then get the other person who has read the same material and they are still doing all of the above and the reason is because deep down it has not clicked with them yet and they truly believe the way out is to get rid or suppress how they feel.
There is a world of difference between seeing something on an intellectual level and on a deep level. When seen on a deep level, trying to control or suppress how you feel would seem like the dumbest thing you could do, so you would automatically stop.
It took me a while to have that lightbulb moment and get it. I was like ‘WOW’ that’s why that did not work, why that did, I see it now so clearly’. Was that the end of my suffering? No, as there was so much negative/fearful/anxious present within me, seeing what I did would not get rid of it overnight. I knew I had to go through a painful process I had spent years trying to avoid. In fact, finally allowing myself to feel it, I felt it more strongly than ever at times, mixed in with days of peace and bliss I had never felt before. I loved the good days, but I was fine with all the bad too, as I knew it was a vital part of the process of recovery.
Your mind and body is trying to release what is stopping you from feeling at peace
My realisation was the end of all my suppression and coping techniques, as it made no sense to continue to do so. Even when my mind screamed, ‘Escape, fix’ I smiled at it as I knew deep down I was totally fine with whatever symptoms came up. I was not under attack and whatever was going on could not harm me in any way. I truly saw that my mind and body was full of negative/anxious energy through years of worry and stress, this needed to be released by completely letting go and allowing it all to rise up within me.
The mistake a lot of people make is they think that letting go, allowing, is a ‘do’, they want to know how to do it, why? Because again they want to use it as a technique not to feel a certain way, when this is all about feeling it, not the other way around. You can’t ‘DO’ allowing or letting go, it is not a do, it is an attitude. It’s about not holding on to any strategy, not having any rules or technique, not protecting yourself in any way, it is about letting go of everything, about fully opening up and allowing everything to arise within you.
People think if they let go of all control and all resistance that something bad will happen, that they will somehow lose control, but don’t fall for your mind’s tricks, it won’t. You feel far more control when you let go than you do when holding on.
The above is not some idea I have about recovery, this comes from personal experience, I have seen so many recover this way, and for me, it is the only way.
Just remember you are always there underneath all this negative/anxious energy, this is all just surface stuff and not who you truly are. When the last of mine stuff was released, all the symptoms left me. All the labels I was given were nonsense, I did not need years of therapy, I did not need to deal with each symptom separate or need a bunch of rules or techniques. I did not need to get somewhere or escape anything; the answer was much simpler than that. The answer really is simple once you see it for yourself, hopefully, my words will help you do that.