I was talking with someone the other day about his anxiety and how he first suffered. He said that it initially came about due to being put under a lot of pressure at work and there were a few problems at home that were causing him a lot of stress and worry.
He then said ‘ But Paul I have cut my hours down, the other problems no longer exist, so why do I still feel like this, nothing is changing, and I feel worn out?’
I said “The reason you are still in a cycle of anxiety is that you now have a new problem and it is this problem that is keeping your anxiety going.
To which he replied ‘What new problem’?
I replied “Anxiety'”
I could tell by talking with him that this was the case. He was rubbing his hands constantly and seemed agitated and kept mentioning how anxiety was ruining his life and that he had tried everything to overcome it without success.
How we stay in the cycle of anxiety
I explained that initially, yes, the anxiety was brought on by him worrying and stressing about work and home but even though this was no longer the case, the work and homes stresses had now been replaced with worrying and stressing about anxiety and his current predicament.
Instead of worrying and stressing over a deadline at work, he was now worried about his anxiety and how it was affecting him and those around him. His whole day was also taken up by fighting it mentally and physically, and this is the reason he felt so worn out.
He agreed with me and explained that he felt he had to beat his anxiety and that the people around him were telling him that his family needed him and that he must beat this thing. He said “Paul all I want is to be left alone but I have responsibilities, a family to feed. Everyone relies on me and your right, I have been up all night at times trying to figure a way out, trying to defeat this thing, only to have very little sleep and then wake up more defeated than ever”.
I explained to him that he was caught up in a cycle of creating new suffering through the process of worrying about his current state. All this battling and over thinking was only wearing him out further and keeping him awake at night. Recovery could never come through this approach.
The anxiety loop
This is the cycle that so many find themselves in until they see the truth for themselves. You can’t heal your symptoms of worry and stress by worrying and stressing about the symptoms themselves. You have to realise that you are creating your own problems and continued suffering through a lack of understanding.
I did the same thing, in fact, my initial problem no longer mattered, this anxiety was a far bigger problem than what brought it on.
I went through the whole cycle of continually worrying about how I now felt. I went to war with it daily and tried everything to make this damn thing go away and just got worse. I had no idea at the time that I was creating all this extra suffering.
Once I explained all this to him, he said ‘Paul I truly understand what you’re saying here, and I realise now that I am doing all of the above and it makes sense and to why I am getting nowhere’.
We then spoke about how he could now explain to his family and his boss about not only how he was feeling but also what was needed for him to recover. He needed time, space and some understanding from others, so they put no any extra burden on him.
I also explained to him that he had to accept he had anxiety for the time being and stop this pointless pursuit of trying to defeat it. In doing this, he would just create more suffering and stay in a constant loop while not giving his mind and body the chance to recover.
To recover he had to break this cycle of recreating his anxiety and then be patient enough to allow the process of healing to happen. If my body could have spoken to me many years ago, it would have said ‘Paul just leave me alone and I will heal myself’.
It kept shouting this message at me until one day I finally listened!
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