push anxiety away

This title I have used is because it is one of the questions that people search more for on Google than anything else. The trouble is that people will try anything to make it all go away and this in many cases is the problem. Their desperation to be better in many cases makes them feel worse.

I know as this is what happened to me. I don’t think a day went by where I did not worry about how I felt, a day never went by without me trying to figure a way out of this hell, a day never went by where I did not try to do something about it. I searched through the local phone book for someone or something to make it all go away, this was the very early days of the internet and really the only way to get help. I tried acupuncture, hypnosis and many other useless treatments that just parted me with my money. My whole week was set around making it all go away, every day was a battle.

My day would go something like this…..I would wake and feel awful, very anxious and almost like like a walking shell. I also felt odd and strange, not with it, but I had to earn a living so off I went to work on autopilot. I would get to work and try and hide from everyone how I was feeling, put on an act and hope to hold it all together. I would then be in my own little world for a few hours trying to figure out how to make it all go away, I would basically worry and obsess all day about how I felt.

Then I would go home after an awful day of worry and self-pity and start the process all over again. I would constantly search for the miracle cure to make it all go away. Maybe another trip to the library to read my 30th book on the subject, I had to get rid of this thing. At this point, I had been given little explanation, if any, as to what was wrong with me, so I had to try and figure it all out myself. This went on for many years and I was getting worse…Why?

Well, a lot of people develop anxiety through a build up of stress, which is true in my case. I then felt worse because I spent all my day worrying and stressing about how I felt, the last thing my mind and body needed, was this onslaught, it wanted a break. My mind was so, so tired from all the deep thinking, trying to figure it all out. Did I give it a break? Did I hell, I constantly tried to figure a way out, again worried and obsessed about it all, so my mind tired further and I felt more lost than ever. I felt so disconnected from the world because I had not allowed myself to connect with it, the subject of anxiety and how to find a way out had consumed me, is it any wonder I was getting worse?

Sometimes, even after advising people, they can carry on in this pattern. Never quite sure that it’s not something else and they need to keep searching, worrying and trying to do something about it. In my book, I said it is like having a broken leg and hitting it each day, it will never repair, it needs to be left alone and given a little time to heal. The day I gave up the daily battle with myself, is the day things got easier. I was not cured by any means, this would take more time as I still needed to heal the suffering I had created.

I won’t claim things are easy, they were not for me at first, the real rewards come later. But this is another mistake people make, they become impatient or let one bad day throw them back into despair. So off they go on their roundabout of searching for something to make it all go away again. There is nothing wrong with educating yourself on the subject if the information is useful.

Just remember helpful information is to help and lead you to stop doing, it is not there to add more techniques to your growing list. I instantly knew when I read something if it was good information, it made sense, it felt right, it taught me to let go. All the miracle cures and therapists I had seen before did not, I knew deep down that the real answer must come from within and that no thing or person out there could free me, it was down to me.

I hope there is something there for people to relate to.

Paul

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