Comments on: My journey with Anxiety and Depersonalisation http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/ Anxiety no more Helping sufferers overcome anxiety and panic issues Thu, 17 May 2012 16:47:41 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: natalie http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-11668 natalie Tue, 17 Aug 2010 07:20:15 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-11668 hello everyone xxx my first time on here, and have to say this website has helped me a lot but sometimes have to watch myself cos go on it to often which is looking for answers which only feeds the anxiety. have been dealing with this for year and a half now in the beginning went weeks feeling ok but i would say since may this year not had so many good days, its put a strain on my relationship with my husband as he doesn;t understand and is not compassionate at all just keeps saying i not the person he fell in love with. part of me wants to walk away as i wonder if he not helping me, but then i cannot make the decision cos i so anxious. just wondered if anyone else had this problem making decisions and how they dealt with it. i have two children and have been with my partner 15 years.. the reason it all started was because he kept walking out after arguements and this is still a problem for me. I think the bit i find hardest is how much this knocks your self esteem and wondered how i could get past this its like i do not trust my own point of view. Sorry for being so heavy just a difficult time at the mo. also does anyone else get like a clampness on your head when you are out and about like your brains hurting and you want to lye down??? hello everyone xxx

my first time on here, and have to say this website has helped me a lot but sometimes have to watch myself cos go on it to often which is looking for answers which only feeds the anxiety. have been dealing with this for year and a half now in the beginning went weeks feeling ok but i would say since may this year not had so many good days, its put a strain on my relationship with my husband as he doesn;t understand and is not compassionate at all just keeps saying i not the person he fell in love with. part of me wants to walk away as i wonder if he not helping me, but then i cannot make the decision cos i so anxious. just wondered if anyone else had this problem making decisions and how they dealt with it. i have two children and have been with my partner 15 years.. the reason it all started was because he kept walking out after arguements and this is still a problem for me. I think the bit i find hardest is how much this knocks your self esteem and wondered how i could get past this its like i do not trust my own point of view. Sorry for being so heavy just a difficult time at the mo. also does anyone else get like a clampness on your head when you are out and about like your brains hurting and you want to lye down???

]]> By: Natalie http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-5541 Natalie Wed, 10 Jun 2009 03:36:32 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-5541 i am so glad that Paul posted this, and reading that their are other anxiety sufferers helps, because one of the bad things is feeling like you are the only one who is going through this in the world. for me it started with feeling like i couldnt swallow my food anymore. i felt as if everything i ate was getting stuck. i figured this must be physical so i went to the doctor and had an esophogram of my throat to see if their was a blockage, alas nothing was wrong. i figured it was a mental thing so i would over come it, that night i had a severe panic attack and have been living in fear of them ever since. i know it sounds crazy but b/c of the attack and feeling as if i coulndt breath i became constantly aware of my breathing which is so unpleasant. id slow it down, speed it up keep checking to see that i was breathing instead of knowing it happens naturally like you heartbeat. i got on anti anxiety pills and started seeing a therapist. one night after seeing the therapist i got this real surreal feeling as if i was detached from my own body. it was absoulutely frightening. thank god i read about the symptoms and its called depersonalization which led me here. its awful it effects my social skills and ability to concentrate. some days are better than others but i have hope that i will get through it and i know someday i will look back and be thankful that i overcame. please keep sharing your stories and and progress recovery. we're all in this together! we are not alone i am so glad that Paul posted this, and reading that their are other anxiety sufferers helps, because one of the bad things is feeling like you are the only one who is going through this in the world. for me it started with feeling like i couldnt swallow my food anymore. i felt as if everything i ate was getting stuck. i figured this must be physical so i went to the doctor and had an esophogram of my throat to see if their was a blockage, alas nothing was wrong. i figured it was a mental thing so i would over come it, that night i had a severe panic attack and have been living in fear of them ever since. i know it sounds crazy but b/c of the attack and feeling as if i coulndt breath i became constantly aware of my breathing which is so unpleasant. id slow it down, speed it up keep checking to see that i was breathing instead of knowing it happens naturally like you heartbeat. i got on anti anxiety pills and started seeing a therapist. one night after seeing the therapist i got this real surreal feeling as if i was detached from my own body. it was absoulutely frightening. thank god i read about the symptoms and its called depersonalization which led me here. its awful it effects my social skills and ability to concentrate. some days are better than others but i have hope that i will get through it and i know someday i will look back and be thankful that i overcame. please keep sharing your stories and and progress recovery. we’re all in this together! we are not alone

]]> By: andrew http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-2939 andrew Mon, 08 Dec 2008 00:01:03 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-2939 I started having the anxiety disorder about a month ago. It started with a full panic attack upon waking up in the middle of the night. I remember thinking about something awful and the attack came out of no where. Since then I had 2 or 3 more attacks, but mostly generalized anxiety. Like many of you, I started searching desparately for a cure. I went online, I talked to friends and counselors etc... I felt better, but it didn't last. I continued to fall back into my irrational thinking. My irrational thoughts were feeling of guilt and feeling that God will punish me. These thoughts always send me into an anxious state. After reading Paul's posts I am encouraged. I am encouraged to dare to go on living my life again. I feel like now I have a clearer understanding of why I am feeling the way I feel and that there is hope for a full recovery, though it will take some time to get there and not without bumps and mountains. But I understand completely the idea that my body is stressed out and tired and needs to recharge. Thanks for taking the time out to post and far caring enough to do so. Love you guys. I started having the anxiety disorder about a month ago. It started with a full panic attack upon waking up in the middle of the night. I remember thinking about something awful and the attack came out of no where. Since then I had 2 or 3 more attacks, but mostly generalized anxiety. Like many of you, I started searching desparately for a cure. I went online, I talked to friends and counselors etc… I felt better, but it didn’t last. I continued to fall back into my irrational thinking. My irrational thoughts were feeling of guilt and feeling that God will punish me. These thoughts always send me into an anxious state.

After reading Paul’s posts I am encouraged. I am encouraged to dare to go on living my life again. I feel like now I have a clearer understanding of why I am feeling the way I feel and that there is hope for a full recovery, though it will take some time to get there and not without bumps and mountains. But I understand completely the idea that my body is stressed out and tired and needs to recharge.

Thanks for taking the time out to post and far caring enough to do so.

Love you guys.

]]> By: Eva http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-2693 Eva Tue, 25 Nov 2008 09:37:17 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-2693 Hi Guys I have a quick question for you. I've suffered with anxiety for about 10weeks and I now feel that I can get no joy from things. I wake up in the morning and automoatically think that what's the point because I feel so far gone in this pit of sadness that I cant get out of it. I make myself go places and talk to a therapist, but I am really worried as I have suicidal thoughts on a dily basis - which my doctor and therapist tell me are an offshoot of anxiety (and I've read and posted a comment or 2 on that topic). Can anyone tell me if the joy comes back?? I dont really have panic attacks as such anymore, just get really really worried about these thoughts and feelings and the fact that I might never be normal again. I think these pages are gret as theya re obviously helping so many people...I pray that they can help me too x Hi Guys

I have a quick question for you. I’ve suffered with anxiety for about 10weeks and I now feel that I can get no joy from things. I wake up in the morning and automoatically think that what’s the point because I feel so far gone in this pit of sadness that I cant get out of it. I make myself go places and talk to a therapist, but I am really worried as I have suicidal thoughts on a dily basis – which my doctor and therapist tell me are an offshoot of anxiety (and I’ve read and posted a comment or 2 on that topic). Can anyone tell me if the joy comes back?? I dont really have panic attacks as such anymore, just get really really worried about these thoughts and feelings and the fact that I might never be normal again.

I think these pages are gret as theya re obviously helping so many people…I pray that they can help me too x

]]> By: alex http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-2557 alex Tue, 18 Nov 2008 05:46:20 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-2557 the first time anxiety hit me was just over a year ago. I was smoking way too much weed which triggered it. i was completely on my own and on a gap year! i then decided to get back into a normal lifestyle and put an end to my gap year in January and joined part time couses at a university with friends around. little by little i got over analyzing it, and worrying. i still felt the feeling but i was just so used to it that i would go out all the time and basically stopped being obsessed with it. i had ups and downs but did not care anymore. and then summer came along an i went back to my city and was so happy to be back, that i felt full recovery coming closer and closer. barely 2 weeks into summer ooooooh my god did i enjoy life! i was more confident than ever! and so so so happy!!! All this i did without even knowing it was anxiety!!!! For all of summer i felt like the king of the world! i felt like i was the man! hehe. I went back to university end of august and had stupidly started smoking again. 2 months ago the feelings of anxiety came back and i started worrying and now i feel so disapointed! i feel like there is no way i can go through another 8 months like this and am more obssessed than ever! i am happy to have found this site and read paul's book but no matter what i read i feel like i cant accept this AGAIN!! the first time anxiety hit me was just over a year ago. I was smoking way too much weed which triggered it. i was completely on my own and on a gap year! i then decided to get back into a normal lifestyle and put an end to my gap year in January and joined part time couses at a university with friends around. little by little i got over analyzing it, and worrying. i still felt the feeling but i was just so used to it that i would go out all the time and basically stopped being obsessed with it. i had ups and downs but did not care anymore. and then summer came along an i went back to my city and was so happy to be back, that i felt full recovery coming closer and closer. barely 2 weeks into summer ooooooh my god did i enjoy life! i was more confident than ever! and so so so happy!!! All this i did without even knowing it was anxiety!!!!

For all of summer i felt like the king of the world! i felt like i was the man! hehe.

I went back to university end of august and had stupidly started smoking again. 2 months ago the feelings of anxiety came back and i started worrying and now i feel so disapointed! i feel like there is no way i can go through another 8 months like this and am more obssessed than ever! i am happy to have found this site and read paul’s book but no matter what i read i feel like i cant accept this AGAIN!!

]]> By: Manuella http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-1768 Manuella Tue, 12 Aug 2008 10:15:29 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-1768 Hey! Just passing by to say hello and read some posts. I have to say that Candie's, Paul's and Frank's posts are always amazing. Miss you all! :) Lots of lurrrve, sweet luuurve! Manu Hey!

Just passing by to say hello and read some posts.

I have to say that Candie’s, Paul’s and Frank’s posts are always amazing.

Miss you all! :)

Lots of lurrrve, sweet luuurve!

Manu

]]> By: Tom McGurk http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-1762 Tom McGurk Mon, 11 Aug 2008 10:11:45 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-1762 Fergal, i know exactly what you mean about seroxat withdrawal. i have suffered with anxiety for 8 years now and during that time i tried and tried to come off seroxat again and again. everytime i found i couldnt. this year after christmas i managed to come off them but with the stress of a marriage breakup i ended up going back on them. i have more or less reconciled myself that im going to be on them for the rest of my days but now i think so what - its only 1 30mg tablet every day - if it means my anxiety is a bit easier to manage and deal with then its a small price to pay. so if you feel you would prefer to come off, then by all means do so, but do it very very slowly. on the other hand if you feel the seroxat helps even in a small way, dont put additional pressure on yourself to come off. best wishes and keep us posted on how you get on. Fergal, i know exactly what you mean about seroxat withdrawal. i have suffered with anxiety for 8 years now and during that time i tried and tried to come off seroxat again and again. everytime i found i couldnt. this year after christmas i managed to come off them but with the stress of a marriage breakup i ended up going back on them. i have more or less reconciled myself that im going to be on them for the rest of my days but now i think so what – its only 1 30mg tablet every day – if it means my anxiety is a bit easier to manage and deal with then its a small price to pay. so if you feel you would prefer to come off, then by all means do so, but do it very very slowly. on the other hand if you feel the seroxat helps even in a small way, dont put additional pressure on yourself to come off.
best wishes and keep us posted on how you get on.

]]> By: Fergal http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-1746 Fergal Wed, 06 Aug 2008 22:47:31 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-1746 Cathy, that made perfect sense, thanks so much for your reply, at this stage I have more or less learnt not to fight my thoughts, so I dont have the serious anxiety attacks anymore, but they still come and distress me a lot, I was also going through serious seroxat withdrawal when I wrote that post, I am going back on and tapering slower, thanks again. Cathy, that made perfect sense, thanks so much for your reply, at this stage I have more or less learnt not to fight my thoughts, so I dont have the serious anxiety attacks anymore, but they still come and distress me a lot, I was also going through serious seroxat withdrawal when I wrote that post, I am going back on and tapering slower, thanks again.

]]> By: candie http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-1744 candie Tue, 05 Aug 2008 20:31:00 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-1744 Fergal... i used to think it was my thoughts that caused my anxiety..but it wasnt, i would fuel the anxiety worrying about them but i realised something a bit back that made me see that it really is just anxiety. Sometimes i can force myself to think these thoughts and not give a damn about them, no ruminating, worrying panicking etc... then sometimes i can have what i call an over reaction to them. The reason i have this over reaction is due to the anxiety... otherwise they would bother me all the time. The mistake you are making is laying the blame at the door of the thoughts, when its the anxiety and your reaction to how you channel the anxiety that is your problem. BEst way to let them go is let them be, and eventually u start mocking em... for example.. you may have a thought 'what if i dont have much time left' ... well my reaction to that would be to think of the worst possible outcome.. mock it then realise how unrealistic it is... as you cant control time.. or death etc. Do dont mistake the thoughts for your distress, you have simply began fighting internally for clarification... linking thoughts to how u feel. Its a bit like people that fear leaving there house, all because they had an anxiety attack when they left. Some people can accept it is just anixety, whiles others like to fight for clarity and lay the blame elsewhere.. hence OCD, agrophobia etc. I still have thoughts now and again, but the more times a set back passes ya begin to find it easier to dismiss them. Thats how you get better.. and thats why it really is a case of coming through so many times without fuelling the illness= acceptance. Fergal… i used to think it was my thoughts that caused my anxiety..but it wasnt, i would fuel the anxiety worrying about them but i realised something a bit back that made me see that it really is just anxiety.

Sometimes i can force myself to think these thoughts and not give a damn about them, no ruminating, worrying panicking etc… then sometimes i can have what i call an over reaction to them. The reason i have this over reaction is due to the anxiety… otherwise they would bother me all the time.

The mistake you are making is laying the blame at the door of the thoughts, when its the anxiety and your reaction to how you channel the anxiety that is your problem. BEst way to let them go is let them be, and eventually u start mocking em… for example.. you may have a thought ‘what if i dont have much time left’ … well my reaction to that would be to think of the worst possible outcome.. mock it then realise how unrealistic it is… as you cant control time.. or death etc.

Do dont mistake the thoughts for your distress, you have simply began fighting internally for clarification… linking thoughts to how u feel. Its a bit like people that fear leaving there house, all because they had an anxiety attack when they left. Some people can accept it is just anixety, whiles others like to fight for clarity and lay the blame elsewhere.. hence OCD, agrophobia etc.

I still have thoughts now and again, but the more times a set back passes ya begin to find it easier to dismiss them. Thats how you get better.. and thats why it really is a case of coming through so many times without fuelling the illness= acceptance.

]]> By: Fergal http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/07/22/39/#comment-1742 Fergal Mon, 04 Aug 2008 23:02:08 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=39#comment-1742 Guys, I really, really need some assurance here as I am suffering so badly. The last few days have been absolutely horrendous, I am having the most distressing thoughts, a lot of it is around existential stuff such as: why are we here? why is life so short? I have this thing around 'time' and I wonder why no else is worried about how much time they have left, I feel more and more detached from my family, they seem more like people I barely know then family members, my doctor is starting to think I am having some existential crisis that is causing me this anxiety rather than the other way around, these thoughts are pushing me to the brink guys, I feel like I cannot be happy whilst I have these thoughts, this is like living the exact opposite of 'the power of now'. Can anyone else relate and reassure me this is just my anxiety playing tricks on me? It feels so intense and real, I am aware that my thinking is wrong, and I mostly do not fight these thoughts, but it is very very distressing, thanks a lot guys! Fergal Guys, I really, really need some assurance here as I am suffering so badly. The last few days have been absolutely horrendous, I am having the most distressing thoughts, a lot of it is around existential stuff such as: why are we here? why is life so short? I have this thing around ‘time’ and I wonder why no else is worried about how much time they have left, I feel more and more detached from my family, they seem more like people I barely know then family members, my doctor is starting to think I am having some existential crisis that is causing me this anxiety rather than the other way around, these thoughts are pushing me to the brink guys, I feel like I cannot be happy whilst I have these thoughts, this is like living the exact opposite of ‘the power of now’. Can anyone else relate and reassure me this is just my anxiety playing tricks on me? It feels so intense and real, I am aware that my thinking is wrong, and I mostly do not fight these thoughts, but it is very very distressing, thanks a lot guys!

Fergal

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