Comments on: Anxiety and obsessive scary thoughts http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/ Anxiety no more Helping sufferers overcome anxiety and panic issues Sat, 04 Feb 2012 22:30:41 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: adam http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19708 adam Thu, 02 Feb 2012 02:03:41 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19708 hello! i would like to say paul your book is the greatest! it has help sooooo much! but this is one of the biggest things that bug me the most! so i am looking for help, about 2 and a half months ago i smoked pot for the first time and let me tell you it was the worest thing i have ever gone through. during this terrible time i had a panic attack and during this these crazy thoughts were running through my head and these thoughts were about hurting my self nothing i have never thought of befor this time, so it was very scary. now what i have been going through is a constant feeling of anxiety and the thoughts come back and scare me more! i try my very best to let the thoughts stay there and give them space but some times it is just so hard not to think them because they scare me sooo much! i know have a life coach that helps me with it, and she says that it is ptsd because of the trauma i went through during my high. and i was just wonder if anyone could add or help because i want to recover more than anything! thank you very much for seting up this sit and writing your book! and a very great thanks to anyone who can help i wish you all the best of luck in your recovery! adam hello!
i would like to say paul your book is the greatest! it has help sooooo much! but this is one of the biggest things that bug me the most! so i am looking for help, about 2 and a half months ago i smoked pot for the first time and let me tell you it was the worest thing i have ever gone through. during this terrible time i had a panic attack and during this these crazy thoughts were running through my head and these thoughts were about hurting my self nothing i have never thought of befor this time, so it was very scary. now what i have been going through is a constant feeling of anxiety and the thoughts come back and scare me more! i try my very best to let the thoughts stay there and give them space but some times it is just so hard not to think them because they scare me sooo much! i know have a life coach that helps me with it, and she says that it is ptsd because of the trauma i went through during my high. and i was just wonder if anyone could add or help because i want to recover more than anything! thank you very much for seting up this sit and writing your book! and a very great thanks to anyone who can help i wish you all the best of luck in your recovery!

adam

]]> By: John http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19337 John Fri, 13 Jan 2012 12:06:07 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19337 Hi everyone, Jst Lyk to start off by saying that I'm so glad to have found this web page, jst by reading the messages above its made me calmer over nyt , thanks , I'm 25 nd I first had my anxiety attack when I was 20, which then went on to be my first panic attack to, I thought I was going mental to the point I could not control , the thoughts and images towards my family were just sickining to the point I couldn't eat drink or sleep , I went on the sick from work and I was scared to talk to someone incase I was sectioned for being mental , I eventually got the currage to go to see my doctor which to be fair didn't really help my situation , this went on for weeks until I received a number for councilling , as soon as I rang this lady she was able to explain what was wrong with me and was able to calm me down over the phone , I went to see her for about 5 weeks, an hour a week that is , which in that time helped me massively , I went through a lot of stress and pressure which led to my first experience of anxiety and panic attack, After the scary thoughts what were aimed towards my family, the thought dissapeared after a while and I was starting to feel myself, when one day I was driving across a bridge when all of the sudden a thought just popped into my mind of jumping off and it petrified me and I could jst not get this out of my mind, I no deep down that I would never ever act upon any of the thoughts I had, so I could just not understand why I was having these horrible scary thoughts, eventually that thought passed me by, but what I did notice was after a while I found it really uncomfortable when even I seen a bridge or a knife due to my past experiences which then triggered things back off again. I found that when ever I was going through a hard time at work and felt under a lot of pressure and stress that my anxiety and panic return ( can anyone relate to this behaviour ?) which led to me having more time off work, over the last 5 years I've been able to sort of keep it under control through cognitivepherapy to a certain level, I must add that within these 5 years I've had a lot more good days then bad where I can carry on with my normal life, and then i would read or hear about something in papers or the news and the alarm bells would go again. I will also say if ever I had a drink of alcohol the next few days was terrible for me, I found I was really sensitive to Red bull , please people who read this try and avoid Redbull as it just kick starts adrenalin. Me and my fiancé found out that she was expecting , which we were over the moon with, we were living in a rented property which we thought it would be best for us to have our own place and mortgage. This was a very stressfull to us both because we were both back at our parents by the time our son arrived, as wel as going to work all day I was then having to go to our new home to work in there, sometimes till late at nyt, which meant I was having very little time with my new family, also the way things are with job cut backs these days there is a lot of pressure at work which at the time I did feel stressed but had to much going on to think about, then in November 2011 I read the tragic news of Gary speed the footballer, I must say that the night before I heared this news I was out celebrating my brothers birthday drinking alcohol, When I heared the news it hit Me like my first ever panic and anxiety attack and I jst can't stop thinking about it, to the point where I've thought about it that much that i think that this will happen to me and lose control, I can't enjoy my new home or my new family because these terrible thoughts which have actually made me to go back off work. Once again I'd like to say thanks for people sharing the experiences it's nice to I'm not alone ! Hi everyone,
Jst Lyk to start off by saying that I’m so glad to have found this web page, jst by reading the messages above its made me calmer over nyt , thanks , I’m 25 nd I first had my anxiety attack when I was 20, which then went on to be my first panic attack to, I thought I was going mental to the point I could not control , the thoughts and images towards my family were just sickining to the point I couldn’t eat drink or sleep , I went on the sick from work and I was scared to talk to someone incase I was sectioned for being mental , I eventually got the currage to go to see my doctor which to be fair didn’t really help my situation , this went on for weeks until I received a number for councilling , as soon as I rang this lady she was able to explain what was wrong with me and was able to calm me down over the phone , I went to see her for about 5 weeks, an hour a week that is , which in that time helped me massively , I went through a lot of stress and pressure which led to my first experience of anxiety and panic attack, After the scary thoughts what were aimed towards my family, the thought dissapeared after a while and I was starting to feel myself, when one day I was driving across a bridge when all of the sudden a thought just popped into my mind of jumping off and it petrified me and I could jst not get this out of my mind, I no deep down that I would never ever act upon any of the thoughts I had, so I could just not understand why I was having these horrible scary thoughts, eventually that thought passed me by, but what I did notice was after a while I found it really uncomfortable when even I seen a bridge or a knife due to my past experiences which then triggered things back off again. I found that when ever I was going through a hard time at work and felt under a lot of pressure and stress that my anxiety and panic return ( can anyone relate to this behaviour ?) which led to me having more time off work, over the last 5 years I’ve been able to sort of keep it under control through cognitivepherapy to a certain level, I must add that within these 5 years I’ve had a lot more good days then bad where I can carry on with my normal life, and then i would read or hear about something in papers or the news and the alarm bells would go again. I will also say if ever I had a drink of alcohol the next few days was terrible for me, I found I was really sensitive to Red bull , please people who read this try and avoid Redbull as it just kick starts adrenalin. Me and my fiancé found out that she was expecting , which we were over the moon with, we were living in a rented property which we thought it would be best for us to have our own place and mortgage. This was a very stressfull to us both because we were both back at our parents by the time our son arrived, as wel as going to work all day I was then having to go to our new home to work in there, sometimes till late at nyt, which meant I was having very little time with my new family, also the way things are with job cut backs these days there is a lot of pressure at work which at the time I did feel stressed but had to much going on to think about, then in November 2011 I read the tragic news of Gary speed the footballer, I must say that the night before I heared this news I was out celebrating my brothers birthday drinking alcohol, When I heared the news it hit
Me like my first ever panic and anxiety attack and I jst can’t stop thinking about it, to the point where I’ve thought about it that much that i think that this will happen to me and lose control, I can’t enjoy my new home or my new family because these terrible thoughts which have actually made me to go back off work. Once again I’d like to say thanks for people sharing the experiences it’s nice to I’m not alone !

]]> By: Sara A http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-18400 Sara A Tue, 20 Dec 2011 15:16:46 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-18400 Hiya! i Havent been on here for about 10months maybe more. i wanted to let anyone who remembers me that im doing it! im getting better! I did everything that i wanted to with all the horrible thoughts etc and it really works :) never thought id stand a chance but hey ho :) hope everyone is ok and good luck! merry xmas! Thankyou for everyone who supported me! Hiya!
i Havent been on here for about 10months maybe more.
i wanted to let anyone who remembers me that im doing it! im getting better!
I did everything that i wanted to with all the horrible thoughts etc and it really works :) never thought id stand a chance but hey ho :)
hope everyone is ok and good luck!
merry xmas!
Thankyou for everyone who supported me!

]]> By: Ally http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17837 Ally Tue, 06 Dec 2011 06:00:04 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17837 I have suffered from anxiety, panic, and obsessive thoughts for almost 15 years, and came across this blog when researching the topic. I think the most important thing to remember is that you are not alone! It is normal for the brain to produce irrational, impulsive thoughts. I think everybody experiences disturbing thoughts from time to time... but the key is to not over-analyze! This past summer I opened up about my obsessive thoughts for the first time, and it was truly liberating. A friend confessed to me that she experiences these thoughts as well and suffers a lot of anxiety because of them. I couldn't believe that somebody close to me was going through the same thing all along, and I could finally rest assured that I'm not crazy. I later opened up to my boyfriend about the obsessive thoughts. To my surprise, he said he experiences this too, and that he thought he was crazy! When in doubt, remember that you are not alone and that many of the people around you may be going through the same thing. We're all just too afraid to open up about it! I hope that provides some reassurance for you all. Best wishes. :) I have suffered from anxiety, panic, and obsessive thoughts for almost 15 years, and came across this blog when researching the topic. I think the most important thing to remember is that you are not alone! It is normal for the brain to produce irrational, impulsive thoughts. I think everybody experiences disturbing thoughts from time to time… but the key is to not over-analyze! This past summer I opened up about my obsessive thoughts for the first time, and it was truly liberating. A friend confessed to me that she experiences these thoughts as well and suffers a lot of anxiety because of them. I couldn’t believe that somebody close to me was going through the same thing all along, and I could finally rest assured that I’m not crazy. I later opened up to my boyfriend about the obsessive thoughts. To my surprise, he said he experiences this too, and that he thought he was crazy! When in doubt, remember that you are not alone and that many of the people around you may be going through the same thing. We’re all just too afraid to open up about it!
I hope that provides some reassurance for you all. Best wishes. :)

]]> By: james1978 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17786 james1978 Thu, 01 Dec 2011 16:10:20 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17786 angela - I think that sometimes it helps when people on these types of forums share good stories - thats what i come on to look for anyway :) . Just to let you know that my mum has told me that she had the exact thoughts you say you are having and she is totally fine now. So when people say you cannot get totally better it is not true. angela – I think that sometimes it helps when people on these types of forums share good stories – thats what i come on to look for anyway :) . Just to let you know that my mum has told me that she had the exact thoughts you say you are having and she is totally fine now. So when people say you cannot get totally better it is not true.

]]> By: angela http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17774 angela Wed, 30 Nov 2011 23:03:03 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17774 im not too bad all the time? its like when im soo tired.. and stressed. my thoughts run away in my head and i hate it!! but i keep on going along with my day. i will beat this i no i will i have had to deal with a lot worse in my life.. i just hate the thought of having anxiety and it being something i could control theoretically.. i also am aware that i have anxiety because i am exhausted and rightly so!!! i have been through soo much in my life and the last 2 and half years have been a nightmare for our family :( but i am strong and thats whats keepig me battling on.. i no now that these things are just thoughts. not that it makes a difference... they are horrible thoughts about ending it all and now also about hurting my young 9 year old son!!! i no its all rubbish and its just my shit in my head. but its so upsetting at times :( i am on my second set back and its true it does get easier as you get to no that its all just your tired thought process!!! but each time it gets easier... they are not nice but it kind of makes me go back to the drawing board and start again as i probably wasnt doing it right last time.. its working very slowly but its working :) ijust need to keep reminding myself that its just a thought which leads to a bulshit feeling. THATS IT!!! good luck to everyone its a lonely road but at the end there surely has to be rewards :) im not too bad all the time? its like when im soo tired.. and stressed. my thoughts run away in my head and i hate it!! but i keep on going along with my day. i will beat this i no i will i have had to deal with a lot worse in my life.. i just hate the thought of having anxiety and it being something i could control theoretically.. i also am aware that i have anxiety because i am exhausted and rightly so!!! i have been through soo much in my life and the last 2 and half years have been a nightmare for our family :( but i am strong and thats whats keepig me battling on.. i no now that these things are just thoughts. not that it makes a difference… they are horrible thoughts about ending it all and now also about hurting my young 9 year old son!!! i no its all rubbish and its just my shit in my head. but its so upsetting at times :( i am on my second set back and its true it does get easier as you get to no that its all just your tired thought process!!! but each time it gets easier… they are not nice but it kind of makes me go back to the drawing board and start again as i probably wasnt doing it right last time.. its working very slowly but its working :) ijust need to keep reminding myself that its just a thought which leads to a bulshit feeling. THATS IT!!! good luck to everyone its a lonely road but at the end there surely has to be rewards :)

]]> By: james1978 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17740 james1978 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 10:22:52 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17740 Angela - I have the same feelings. I start to think something that I do not want to think then it eventually gets to a stage where i just cannot stop thinking about it and i think that suicide could be the only way out as i do not want to have to act on the thoughts i am having.. this then makes me worry even more because it is something i do not ever want to do. As an example, I will think 'what if I no longer find my girlfriend attractive and have to leave her' I will look for reasons why I don't and beat myself up over it, even though I know these things have never entered my head before and i definitely don't want to leave her... the more I try to reason my way out of it the worse it becomes, because i start to believe the negative thoughts... I keep telling mysewlf it is just anxiety but it is hard when you think 'perhaps its true'... I have had these worries before about different subjects, but they have passed.. It just seems as if they wont at the time and that 'this is the 'worse time ever'. Angela – I have the same feelings. I start to think something that I do not want to think then it eventually gets to a stage where i just cannot stop thinking about it and i think that suicide could be the only way out as i do not want to have to act on the thoughts i am having.. this then makes me worry even more because it is something i do not ever want to do. As an example, I will think ‘what if I no longer find my girlfriend attractive and have to leave her’ I will look for reasons why I don’t and beat myself up over it, even though I know these things have never entered my head before and i definitely don’t want to leave her… the more I try to reason my way out of it the worse it becomes, because i start to believe the negative thoughts… I keep telling mysewlf it is just anxiety but it is hard when you think ‘perhaps its true’… I have had these worries before about different subjects, but they have passed.. It just seems as if they wont at the time and that ‘this is the ‘worse time ever’.

]]> By: Marie http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17688 Marie Thu, 24 Nov 2011 15:25:47 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17688 Also a sufferer, I've just come across this website and it's fascinating to read through everyone's comments. One of the key things a sufferer will feel at some point is that they are going mad but when I read all these messages, it is very plain to see that everyone here is of sane mind and totally logical about their anxiety and thoughts. What does that tell you? Anxiety sufferers are actually very strong, well adjusted people. How many others could cope with what we have to - you have to be of a strong state to deal with it and we all do. There is light at the end of the tunnel and I agree that the body and mind has a way of telling you it needs to heal and slow down, so listen to it. You'll be even stronger for it afterwards. :-) Also a sufferer, I’ve just come across this website and it’s fascinating to read through everyone’s comments.

One of the key things a sufferer will feel at some point is that they are going mad but when I read all these messages, it is very plain to see that everyone here is of sane mind and totally logical about their anxiety and thoughts. What does that tell you?

Anxiety sufferers are actually very strong, well adjusted people. How many others could cope with what we have to – you have to be of a strong state to deal with it and we all do.

There is light at the end of the tunnel and I agree that the body and mind has a way of telling you it needs to heal and slow down, so listen to it. You’ll be even stronger for it afterwards. :-)

]]> By: angela http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17657 angela Tue, 22 Nov 2011 14:19:06 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17657 im confused with the depression bit? i am not sure if its something else as i have never felt like this before.. i wake up early hours then start thinking and thinking i cant stop it then it gets outof control and feel almost suicidal. although i no it wont happen the feelings are soo real anyone else been like this im getting desperate for some answers now as im ssooooo confused i feel recovery isnt to far away but depression and sleepless nights are really starting to get me down :( help!!!! im confused with the depression bit? i am not sure if its something else as i have never felt like this before.. i wake up early hours then start thinking and thinking i cant stop it then it gets outof control and feel almost suicidal. although i no it wont happen the feelings are soo real anyone else been like this im getting desperate for some answers now as im ssooooo confused i feel recovery isnt to far away but depression and sleepless nights are really starting to get me down :( help!!!!

]]> By: james1978 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-17624 james1978 Fri, 18 Nov 2011 12:44:46 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-17624 What are the signs that a thought is irrational or it is what you really think? THis is what I am really struggling with at the moment even though I thought i knew EXACTLY who i was before these thoughts. I have had a history of anxiety for 10 years. THis started first when i was dabbling in soft drugs, had a lot of stress at work and a bereavement all at the same time. I was given ssri and it passed fairly quickly. In between then and now I have had bouts of anxiety which have focused on something different each time. One time I even questioned my sexuality and this all came because i looked at someone attractive and thought i wasn't interested. When i look back at those thoughts i can see this was ridiculous. THe last spell of anxiety I had, I felt really low was after a relationship break up. The relationship was very destructive and i was on edge a lot and although i didnt want it to end i knew it was the right thing to do. I was put on ssri again and it did seem to help slightly and i moved on and met someone i have been with for 3 years. After being on ssri for 3 years and still having feelings of teariness and anxiety at times I decided i wanted to come off them. During this time I have been very happy and content with my partner. However, 3 months after I have come off SSRI I have been suffering with anxiety and mild depression. For a good month or so i was constantly tearful yet would never cry and couild not find a reason why. I was obsessed with this feeling and thought it would never go. It has subsided, but a worse feeling had just taken its place and Is hard to shake. Throughout this time (about 2 weeks) i was always worrying that i would ruin my relationship if i could not get better and shake the feelings. Then, out of the blue, I had a thought that I shouldn't feel bad round my partner. I got upset at this and thought it might happen all the time. The next day she said maybe she is the reason i am unhappy. I knew this wasn't true but i latched on to that thought and have become obsessive with it ever since. I know this is not true at all, because i felt like this before I met her and i really do love her more than anything. When I am with her before these thoughts I feel completely fine and happy. However, since this anxiety and those negative thoughts my mind is constantly questioning what my true feelings are. The feelings and thoughts are making me feel sick in the stomach and get very upset because I do not want out relationshi to end. I try to just say to myself - 'these are just thoughts from the anxiety and i know they are not true or important'. When i do this though, my mind will always ask 'but how do you know it isn't true' and 'Maybe you would be happier on your own'. I know that if I followed this through i would be more upset and it is not what i want'. I keep thinking to myself 'if it was true that i wasnt happy with her, i wouldn't be so upset about the thought of not being together' but every time I think of a positive like this my mind thinks of an alternative view such as 'maybe your only upset and anxious because your scared of change, but in the long run you would be better'.... THis then makes me feel butterflies/sick and tearful and guilty for thinking it. It is really confusing trying to work out these contrasting thoughts all the time and when I feel like I am giving in to them i feel worse. I feel that If I ignore the thoughts I am 'ignoring the real me'. But then I think 'the real me last week didnt think these thoughts over 3 years with this person so it isnt the real me'.. I do not understand how can i go from worrying so much that a person will leave me due to my anxiety to the complete opposite of maybe i will have to leave her because i could be happier without her.. I have thought maybe my brain is putting up a barrier to prevent me getting hurt in future, so it is trying to deaden my feelings for her... but i do not want this to happen because i love her and cant stand the thought of being apart. I am trying to accept and live beside these thoughts, but it is hard when there is so much false uncertainty. How can you just let these thoughts come and accept them.. I feel by accepting them i am agreeing with them.. yet I know it isn't what I want. This thought pattern had happened overnight and it is taking over my thoughts 24/7 now. I don't want to think things like this about people i care about the most and cannot understand how the beleifs I hold as a person can be stripped away so very quickly by a thought pattern. Does this sound like I am scared to end a relationship or that I am creating my worst fear and feeding on it? I feel guilty for even thinking that I shouldnt be with the person. And i am constantly scanning everything we do or have done to see if things are 'right'. ANyone who has experienced and come through this your advice would be very helpful. Thanks What are the signs that a thought is irrational or it is what you really think?
THis is what I am really struggling with at the moment even though I thought i knew EXACTLY who i was before these thoughts.

I have had a history of anxiety for 10 years. THis started first when i was dabbling in soft drugs, had a lot of stress at work and a bereavement all at the same time. I was given ssri and it passed fairly quickly.

In between then and now I have had bouts of anxiety which have focused on something different each time. One time I even questioned my sexuality and this all came because i looked at someone attractive and thought i wasn’t interested. When i look back at those thoughts i can see this was ridiculous.

THe last spell of anxiety I had, I felt really low was after a relationship break up. The relationship was very destructive and i was on edge a lot and although i didnt want it to end i knew it was the right thing to do.
I was put on ssri again and it did seem to help slightly and i moved on and met someone i have been with for 3 years. After being on ssri for 3 years and still having feelings of teariness and anxiety at times I decided i wanted to come off them. During this time I have been very happy and content with my partner.

However, 3 months after I have come off SSRI I have been suffering with anxiety and mild depression. For a good month or so i was constantly tearful yet would never cry and couild not find a reason why. I was obsessed with this feeling and thought it would never go.
It has subsided, but a worse feeling had just taken its place and Is hard to shake.

Throughout this time (about 2 weeks) i was always worrying that i would ruin my relationship if i could not get better and shake the feelings. Then, out of the blue, I had a thought that I shouldn’t feel bad round my partner. I got upset at this and thought it might happen all the time.
The next day she said maybe she is the reason i am unhappy. I knew this wasn’t true but i latched on to that thought and have become obsessive with it ever since.

I know this is not true at all, because i felt like this before I met her and i really do love her more than anything. When I am with her before these thoughts I feel completely fine and happy.

However, since this anxiety and those negative thoughts my mind is constantly questioning what my true feelings are. The feelings and thoughts are making me feel sick in the stomach and get very upset because I do not want out relationshi to end.
I try to just say to myself – ‘these are just thoughts from the anxiety and i know they are not true or important’. When i do this though, my mind will always ask ‘but how do you know it isn’t true’ and ‘Maybe you would be happier on your own’. I know that if I followed this through i would be more upset and it is not what i want’.

I keep thinking to myself ‘if it was true that i wasnt happy with her, i wouldn’t be so upset about the thought of not being together’ but every time I think of a positive like this my mind thinks of an alternative view such as ‘maybe your only upset and anxious because your scared of change, but in the long run you would be better’…. THis then makes me feel butterflies/sick and tearful and guilty for thinking it.

It is really confusing trying to work out these contrasting thoughts all the time and when I feel like I am giving in to them i feel worse.
I feel that If I ignore the thoughts I am ‘ignoring the real me’. But then I think ‘the real me last week didnt think these thoughts over 3 years with this person so it isnt the real me’..

I do not understand how can i go from worrying so much that a person will leave me due to my anxiety to the complete opposite of maybe i will have to leave her because i could be happier without her.. I have thought maybe my brain is putting up a barrier to prevent me getting hurt in future, so it is trying to deaden my feelings for her… but i do not want this to happen because i love her and cant stand the thought of being apart.

I am trying to accept and live beside these thoughts, but it is hard when there is so much false uncertainty.

How can you just let these thoughts come and accept them.. I feel by accepting them i am agreeing with them.. yet I know it isn’t what I want.

This thought pattern had happened overnight and it is taking over my thoughts 24/7 now. I don’t want to think things like this about people i care about the most and cannot understand how the beleifs I hold as a person can be stripped away so very quickly by a thought pattern.

Does this sound like I am scared to end a relationship or that I am creating my worst fear and feeding on it?

I feel guilty for even thinking that I shouldnt be with the person. And i am constantly scanning everything we do or have done to see if things are ‘right’.

ANyone who has experienced and come through this your advice would be very helpful.

Thanks

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