Comments on: Anxiety and obsessive scary thoughts http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/ Anxiety no more Helping sufferers overcome anxiety and panic issues Thu, 17 May 2012 16:05:53 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: Zero61 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-21727 Zero61 Mon, 30 Apr 2012 13:17:07 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-21727 Hi guys, ive been reading this for awhile now and it makes me feel good when i read it because i see that people have the same symptoms as me and that im not alone or a 'freak' im only 18 but i finished school in September 2011 and i never went to college because i didnt know what i wanted to do yet, so after finishing school i was doing nothing just sitting at home watching tv day in and day out so you can imagine i eventually got bored and depressed, around December 2011 i first experienced anxiety and i was really bad with it i couldnt eat i couldnt sleep i was depressed 24/7 , and i was so scared and ashamed of the thoughts i was having i didnt want to tell anybody in case they wouldnt talk to me again or disown me! these thoughts went on for ages and i started to believe that i was a freak and there was something wrong with me for having them but then i found this website and it has really helped me through a lot, in january i got an interview for a job and i got the job soon after the thoughts disappeared for awhile but very recently they have come back and their really bad this time, i dont wanna give up my job because i know it will set me back to square one again! i just need some answers should i seek some Councilling? because i am afraid no one will understand me or want to know me when i tell them my thoughts even tho i would never in a million years act on them , they make me sick to my stomach when i think of them! Hi guys, ive been reading this for awhile now and it makes me feel good when i read it because i see that people have the same symptoms as me and that im not alone or a ‘freak’ im only 18 but i finished school in September 2011 and i never went to college because i didnt know what i wanted to do yet, so after finishing school i was doing nothing just sitting at home watching tv day in and day out so you can imagine i eventually got bored and depressed, around December 2011 i first experienced anxiety and i was really bad with it i couldnt eat i couldnt sleep i was depressed 24/7 , and i was so scared and ashamed of the thoughts i was having i didnt want to tell anybody in case they wouldnt talk to me again or disown me! these thoughts went on for ages and i started to believe that i was a freak and there was something wrong with me for having them but then i found this website and it has really helped me through a lot, in january i got an interview for a job and i got the job soon after the thoughts disappeared for awhile but very recently they have come back and their really bad this time, i dont wanna give up my job because i know it will set me back to square one again! i just need some answers should i seek some Councilling? because i am afraid no one will understand me or want to know me when i tell them my thoughts even tho i would never in a million years act on them , they make me sick to my stomach when i think of them!

]]> By: John http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-21448 John Thu, 19 Apr 2012 22:13:25 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-21448 Can anyone give me any info on this plz ??, Iv been on the sick from work for 4 months now with severe panic attacks and anxiety, has anyone else been off for this long or does people think I'm taking the piss now, I'm really concerned over this but I no I'm not in the right frame of mind yet to return to work, any feedback would be great thanks ??? Can anyone give me any info on this plz ??, Iv been on the sick from work for 4 months now with severe panic attacks and anxiety, has anyone else been off for this long or does people think I’m taking the piss now, I’m really concerned over this but I no I’m not in the right frame of mind yet to return to work, any feedback would be great thanks ???

]]> By: nicky http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-21367 nicky Mon, 16 Apr 2012 06:37:45 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-21367 Hi all, This is a question for Paul David or if someone else can answer. This is my first time on here. I've recently purchased the book. It really has helped me over come most of my anxiety,but one stupid thought that keeps entering my mind. What if it turns into something else. Some other mental illness. I keep thinking what if today is the day, i loose my mind and start hearing voices or seeing things. It scares me sooo bad. Is this a common thought of anxiety? Hi all,

This is a question for Paul David or if someone else can answer.

This is my first time on here. I’ve recently purchased the book. It really has helped me over come most of my anxiety,but one stupid thought that keeps entering my mind. What if it turns into something else. Some other mental illness. I keep thinking what if today is the day, i loose my mind and start hearing voices or seeing things. It scares me sooo bad. Is this a common thought of anxiety?

]]> By: james1978 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-20938 james1978 Fri, 30 Mar 2012 15:54:27 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-20938 This is for JS. Elements of what you are describing are EXACTLY the same as the thoughts and feelings I have had. What works best for me is just acknowledging it as anxiety. I have got much better over a period of 5 months, but I do still struggle at times. The 'what if it isn't anxiety' question is always the hardest to deal with for me. Expecially when you start to get better and the level of anxiety is lower - so watch out for this. At this point just think 'what if it isn't who cares' and do something you enjoy instead. It is hard but it works. You will improve, you just need to carry on as though you don't care. Ultimately, if you really believed the thoughts you were having were a true reflection of you, then you would not be unhappy or scared of them. This is for JS. Elements of what you are describing are EXACTLY the same as the thoughts and feelings I have had. What works best for me is just acknowledging it as anxiety. I have got much better over a period of 5 months, but I do still struggle at times. The ‘what if it isn’t anxiety’ question is always the hardest to deal with for me. Expecially when you start to get better and the level of anxiety is lower – so watch out for this. At this point just think ‘what if it isn’t who cares’ and do something you enjoy instead. It is hard but it works. You will improve, you just need to carry on as though you don’t care. Ultimately, if you really believed the thoughts you were having were a true reflection of you, then you would not be unhappy or scared of them.

]]> By: JS http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-20430 JS Tue, 13 Mar 2012 23:35:52 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-20430 Hi everyone, I have grazed through all of your stories and believe that I may be suffering from anxiety aswell. I am taking medication to help with depression but I am CONSTANTLY thinking things that I wish I could ignore. My thoughts all started when I woke up one morning with anxiety, I was living with my mom and my boyfriend at the time. I have had a very troubled childhood where my father was EXTREMELY abusive and spent most of his life in jail thus being absent from my life. anyways thought i would give you a little background. To make a long story short, my boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years and I love him with everything part of me. My mother didnt like hm because she didnt trust men. Anyways after having my anxiety i went to her for advice (bad idea) she told me that the reason i was feeling this way was because my boyfriend was abusive and cheating on me. This was completely crazy and irrational, I was very confused and sad and mad all at the same time, so i had a serious breakdown and left my moms- moved in with my sister. At this point I was VERY confused about absolutly everything that went on in my head. I doubted every single feeling or choice i have ever made. I spent most of my time in her dark basement crying my eyes out and wanting to die, because deep down inside i KNEW my boyfriend would never hurt me and loved me and that my mom was wrong but i couldent think straight, i felt like i was in a twilight zone, my whole world went dark and twisted. I started to hate myself and i wanted to die. After i thought about it for a long time one day i decided to go get help. Then when i finally thought i might be able to controle this depression that had taken hold of me the CRAZY thoughts started to sink in. Every day i had a new thought that was insane but I had to analyze it, i had to call my sister and ask her if this was normal and why am i having it. My thoughts were and are as follows: I dont love my boyfriend and all of our five years together have been fake, I am secretly inlove with a gay guy i worked with, Iam a pedofile like my father, I have been inlove with my boyfriends uncle this whole time and not my boyfriend ( i did this with many different guys). These thoughts KILLED me inside, i was ALWAYS crying and hopeless, and every time i thought okay this MUST be true because i cant stop thinking it, i would look at my boyfriend and think am i crazy? I love him so much! Or i would look in the mirror and be like wtf i am not a child abuser. Anyways it has been about 9 months of this torture, Right now i am stuck on a thought that I am inlove with this random mail man at my work and that I am going to cheat on my boyfriend with him, or with other co-workers. I actually avoid looking at or talking to these people. These thoughts have completely consumed me, I am definately not myself anymore and I am not living. I am just existing to feel guilt, pain and serious anxiety. I dont even sleep anymore. I have a constant gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. I have talked to a few people and they have said stuff like "well maybe you ae not happy in your relationship" which has actually made me question that aswell BUT I am happy. I love my boyfriend, and if it wasnt for this crap eating me alive i would be so much happier. We are finally buying a house together which we have been dreaming about since we have been together and I cant wait but then I get these feelings and thoughts like "you better not because one day you are going to realize that you have been secretly inlove with his uncle and have been using him" then I analyze that for weeks!I start to feel guilty as if it is actually true and then i feel stuck with that thought. My sister tells me that this is all crazy, and I wish I could just say to myself..This is all not true and its just anxiety and have it go away. But it never does. I want to know does anyone have anxiety like this? is it consuming your life and making you think you have done or will do these terrible things? As soon as i get rid of one obsessive thought another popps into my head RIGHT away! I know i would never hurt my relationship, but then its like sometimes the anxiety actually makes me believe i already HAVE or will. This is killing me. Any advice? I feel like I need to hear that this is ALL anxiety because I am in a constant state of doubt. Hi everyone, I have grazed through all of your stories and believe that I may be suffering from anxiety aswell. I am taking medication to help with depression but I am CONSTANTLY thinking things that I wish I could ignore. My thoughts all started when I woke up one morning with anxiety, I was living with my mom and my boyfriend at the time. I have had a very troubled childhood where my father was EXTREMELY abusive and spent most of his life in jail thus being absent from my life. anyways thought i would give you a little background. To make a long story short, my boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years and I love him with everything part of me. My mother didnt like hm because she didnt trust men. Anyways after having my anxiety i went to her for advice (bad idea) she told me that the reason i was feeling this way was because my boyfriend was abusive and cheating on me. This was completely crazy and irrational, I was very confused and sad and mad all at the same time, so i had a serious breakdown and left my moms- moved in with my sister. At this point I was VERY confused about absolutly everything that went on in my head. I doubted every single feeling or choice i have ever made. I spent most of my time in her dark basement crying my eyes out and wanting to die, because deep down inside i KNEW my boyfriend would never hurt me and loved me and that my mom was wrong but i couldent think straight, i felt like i was in a twilight zone, my whole world went dark and twisted. I started to hate myself and i wanted to die. After i thought about it for a long time one day i decided to go get help. Then when i finally thought i might be able to controle this depression that had taken hold of me the CRAZY thoughts started to sink in.

Every day i had a new thought that was insane but I had to analyze it, i had to call my sister and ask her if this was normal and why am i having it. My thoughts were and are as follows: I dont love my boyfriend and all of our five years together have been fake, I am secretly inlove with a gay guy i worked with, Iam a pedofile like my father, I have been inlove with my boyfriends uncle this whole time and not my boyfriend ( i did this with many different guys). These thoughts KILLED me inside, i was ALWAYS crying and hopeless, and every time i thought okay this MUST be true because i cant stop thinking it, i would look at my boyfriend and think am i crazy? I love him so much! Or i would look in the mirror and be like wtf i am not a child abuser. Anyways it has been about 9 months of this torture, Right now i am stuck on a thought that I am inlove with this random mail man at my work and that I am going to cheat on my boyfriend with him, or with other co-workers. I actually avoid looking at or talking to these people. These thoughts have completely consumed me, I am definately not myself anymore and I am not living. I am just existing to feel guilt, pain and serious anxiety. I dont even sleep anymore. I have a constant gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. I have talked to a few people and they have said stuff like “well maybe you ae not happy in your relationship” which has actually made me question that aswell BUT I am happy. I love my boyfriend, and if it wasnt for this crap eating me alive i would be so much happier. We are finally buying a house together which we have been dreaming about since we have been together and I cant wait but then I get these feelings and thoughts like “you better not because one day you are going to realize that you have been secretly inlove with his uncle and have been using him” then I analyze that for weeks!I start to feel guilty as if it is actually true and then i feel stuck with that thought. My sister tells me that this is all crazy, and I wish I could just say to myself..This is all not true and its just anxiety and have it go away. But it never does. I want to know does anyone have anxiety like this? is it consuming your life and making you think you have done or will do these terrible things? As soon as i get rid of one obsessive thought another popps into my head RIGHT away! I know i would never hurt my relationship, but then its like sometimes the anxiety actually makes me believe i already HAVE or will. This is killing me. Any advice? I feel like I need to hear that this is ALL anxiety because I am in a constant state of doubt.

]]> By: adam http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19850 adam Fri, 10 Feb 2012 11:32:34 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19850 i have the same thing Norberta, i have been dealing with them for a good month and a half! and then thank good found this place! but i have been doing what you say paul and just let the thoughts be there and give them space (which is working alot) but i often have time where i think "ohh i havent had a bad thought in a while" and then that brings on a bad thought. i guess i just have a problem with fulling accepting that its anxiety. was it had for anyone eles? so if anyone could put some thoughts about this, it would be great! thank you very much and best of luck to every one out there! adam i have the same thing Norberta, i have been dealing with them for a good month and a half! and then thank good found this place! but i have been doing what you say paul and just let the thoughts be there and give them space (which is working alot) but i often have time where i think “ohh i havent had a bad thought in a while” and then that brings on a bad thought. i guess i just have a problem with fulling accepting that its anxiety. was it had for anyone eles? so if anyone could put some thoughts about this, it would be great! thank you very much and best of luck to every one out there!

adam

]]> By: Norberta http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19842 Norberta Thu, 09 Feb 2012 10:35:54 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19842 Hello Paul and all, Paul, I must say that you are my rock right now as I am reading your blog and advise and it is helping me alot get through this phase of anxiety that I am in. I ordered your book and am waiting for it. Basically, what I am going through is scary and irrational and obsessive thoughts. I was fine around 3 weeks ago and then a switch turned on and this started. It was because there were 3 deaths of people I know in a short period of time. What happened to me was that I started getting scared that I am going to die, then that I am going to harm myself/ suicide, then that I am going to harm my boyfriend or people around me and then I also got scared that I am going to end up in a mental hospital because of the way that I am feeling and all these things scare me to death. I was trying to suppress them or saying to myself I am going to be ok to no improvement. Then, I came here and started going with your advice as in letting these thoughts rumble and dwell in my mind without me giving them any notice and slowly slowly they are fading away. I am also trying to understand this whole concept of anxiety. Also, I seem to reverse everything bad that I read/ hear or see on me (I guess this is all down to anxiety), like if there was a murder on the news, I put myself in their shoes and get more scared. I am learning to not run away from them but rather let the thoughts come so I will not give anxiety any respect as then this will come out again at some point in my life. I really want to recover and want this to be fast but am being patient and trusting myself that things are going to be ok but there is no rush. I want to feel good and I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Would love to hear your answer Paul :) Thank you for your help X Hello Paul and all,

Paul, I must say that you are my rock right now as I am reading your blog and advise and it is helping me alot get through this phase of anxiety that I am in. I ordered your book and am waiting for it.

Basically, what I am going through is scary and irrational and obsessive thoughts. I was fine around 3 weeks ago and then a switch turned on and this started. It was because there were 3 deaths of people I know in a short period of time. What happened to me was that I started getting scared that I am going to die, then that I am going to harm myself/ suicide, then that I am going to harm my boyfriend or people around me and then I also got scared that I am going to end up in a mental hospital because of the way that I am feeling and all these things scare me to death. I was trying to suppress them or saying to myself I am going to be ok to no improvement.

Then, I came here and started going with your advice as in letting these thoughts rumble and dwell in my mind without me giving them any notice and slowly slowly they are fading away. I am also trying to understand this whole concept of anxiety.

Also, I seem to reverse everything bad that I read/ hear or see on me (I guess this is all down to anxiety), like if there was a murder on the news, I put myself in their shoes and get more scared. I am learning to not run away from them but rather let the thoughts come so I will not give anxiety any respect as then this will come out again at some point in my life.

I really want to recover and want this to be fast but am being patient and trusting myself that things are going to be ok but there is no rush. I want to feel good and I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Would love to hear your answer Paul :)

Thank you for your help

X

]]> By: adam http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19708 adam Thu, 02 Feb 2012 02:03:41 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19708 hello! i would like to say paul your book is the greatest! it has help sooooo much! but this is one of the biggest things that bug me the most! so i am looking for help, about 2 and a half months ago i smoked pot for the first time and let me tell you it was the worest thing i have ever gone through. during this terrible time i had a panic attack and during this these crazy thoughts were running through my head and these thoughts were about hurting my self nothing i have never thought of befor this time, so it was very scary. now what i have been going through is a constant feeling of anxiety and the thoughts come back and scare me more! i try my very best to let the thoughts stay there and give them space but some times it is just so hard not to think them because they scare me sooo much! i know have a life coach that helps me with it, and she says that it is ptsd because of the trauma i went through during my high. and i was just wonder if anyone could add or help because i want to recover more than anything! thank you very much for seting up this sit and writing your book! and a very great thanks to anyone who can help i wish you all the best of luck in your recovery! adam hello!
i would like to say paul your book is the greatest! it has help sooooo much! but this is one of the biggest things that bug me the most! so i am looking for help, about 2 and a half months ago i smoked pot for the first time and let me tell you it was the worest thing i have ever gone through. during this terrible time i had a panic attack and during this these crazy thoughts were running through my head and these thoughts were about hurting my self nothing i have never thought of befor this time, so it was very scary. now what i have been going through is a constant feeling of anxiety and the thoughts come back and scare me more! i try my very best to let the thoughts stay there and give them space but some times it is just so hard not to think them because they scare me sooo much! i know have a life coach that helps me with it, and she says that it is ptsd because of the trauma i went through during my high. and i was just wonder if anyone could add or help because i want to recover more than anything! thank you very much for seting up this sit and writing your book! and a very great thanks to anyone who can help i wish you all the best of luck in your recovery!

adam

]]> By: John http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-19337 John Fri, 13 Jan 2012 12:06:07 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-19337 Hi everyone, Jst Lyk to start off by saying that I'm so glad to have found this web page, jst by reading the messages above its made me calmer over nyt , thanks , I'm 25 nd I first had my anxiety attack when I was 20, which then went on to be my first panic attack to, I thought I was going mental to the point I could not control , the thoughts and images towards my family were just sickining to the point I couldn't eat drink or sleep , I went on the sick from work and I was scared to talk to someone incase I was sectioned for being mental , I eventually got the currage to go to see my doctor which to be fair didn't really help my situation , this went on for weeks until I received a number for councilling , as soon as I rang this lady she was able to explain what was wrong with me and was able to calm me down over the phone , I went to see her for about 5 weeks, an hour a week that is , which in that time helped me massively , I went through a lot of stress and pressure which led to my first experience of anxiety and panic attack, After the scary thoughts what were aimed towards my family, the thought dissapeared after a while and I was starting to feel myself, when one day I was driving across a bridge when all of the sudden a thought just popped into my mind of jumping off and it petrified me and I could jst not get this out of my mind, I no deep down that I would never ever act upon any of the thoughts I had, so I could just not understand why I was having these horrible scary thoughts, eventually that thought passed me by, but what I did notice was after a while I found it really uncomfortable when even I seen a bridge or a knife due to my past experiences which then triggered things back off again. I found that when ever I was going through a hard time at work and felt under a lot of pressure and stress that my anxiety and panic return ( can anyone relate to this behaviour ?) which led to me having more time off work, over the last 5 years I've been able to sort of keep it under control through cognitivepherapy to a certain level, I must add that within these 5 years I've had a lot more good days then bad where I can carry on with my normal life, and then i would read or hear about something in papers or the news and the alarm bells would go again. I will also say if ever I had a drink of alcohol the next few days was terrible for me, I found I was really sensitive to Red bull , please people who read this try and avoid Redbull as it just kick starts adrenalin. Me and my fiancé found out that she was expecting , which we were over the moon with, we were living in a rented property which we thought it would be best for us to have our own place and mortgage. This was a very stressfull to us both because we were both back at our parents by the time our son arrived, as wel as going to work all day I was then having to go to our new home to work in there, sometimes till late at nyt, which meant I was having very little time with my new family, also the way things are with job cut backs these days there is a lot of pressure at work which at the time I did feel stressed but had to much going on to think about, then in November 2011 I read the tragic news of Gary speed the footballer, I must say that the night before I heared this news I was out celebrating my brothers birthday drinking alcohol, When I heared the news it hit Me like my first ever panic and anxiety attack and I jst can't stop thinking about it, to the point where I've thought about it that much that i think that this will happen to me and lose control, I can't enjoy my new home or my new family because these terrible thoughts which have actually made me to go back off work. Once again I'd like to say thanks for people sharing the experiences it's nice to I'm not alone ! Hi everyone,
Jst Lyk to start off by saying that I’m so glad to have found this web page, jst by reading the messages above its made me calmer over nyt , thanks , I’m 25 nd I first had my anxiety attack when I was 20, which then went on to be my first panic attack to, I thought I was going mental to the point I could not control , the thoughts and images towards my family were just sickining to the point I couldn’t eat drink or sleep , I went on the sick from work and I was scared to talk to someone incase I was sectioned for being mental , I eventually got the currage to go to see my doctor which to be fair didn’t really help my situation , this went on for weeks until I received a number for councilling , as soon as I rang this lady she was able to explain what was wrong with me and was able to calm me down over the phone , I went to see her for about 5 weeks, an hour a week that is , which in that time helped me massively , I went through a lot of stress and pressure which led to my first experience of anxiety and panic attack, After the scary thoughts what were aimed towards my family, the thought dissapeared after a while and I was starting to feel myself, when one day I was driving across a bridge when all of the sudden a thought just popped into my mind of jumping off and it petrified me and I could jst not get this out of my mind, I no deep down that I would never ever act upon any of the thoughts I had, so I could just not understand why I was having these horrible scary thoughts, eventually that thought passed me by, but what I did notice was after a while I found it really uncomfortable when even I seen a bridge or a knife due to my past experiences which then triggered things back off again. I found that when ever I was going through a hard time at work and felt under a lot of pressure and stress that my anxiety and panic return ( can anyone relate to this behaviour ?) which led to me having more time off work, over the last 5 years I’ve been able to sort of keep it under control through cognitivepherapy to a certain level, I must add that within these 5 years I’ve had a lot more good days then bad where I can carry on with my normal life, and then i would read or hear about something in papers or the news and the alarm bells would go again. I will also say if ever I had a drink of alcohol the next few days was terrible for me, I found I was really sensitive to Red bull , please people who read this try and avoid Redbull as it just kick starts adrenalin. Me and my fiancé found out that she was expecting , which we were over the moon with, we were living in a rented property which we thought it would be best for us to have our own place and mortgage. This was a very stressfull to us both because we were both back at our parents by the time our son arrived, as wel as going to work all day I was then having to go to our new home to work in there, sometimes till late at nyt, which meant I was having very little time with my new family, also the way things are with job cut backs these days there is a lot of pressure at work which at the time I did feel stressed but had to much going on to think about, then in November 2011 I read the tragic news of Gary speed the footballer, I must say that the night before I heared this news I was out celebrating my brothers birthday drinking alcohol, When I heared the news it hit
Me like my first ever panic and anxiety attack and I jst can’t stop thinking about it, to the point where I’ve thought about it that much that i think that this will happen to me and lose control, I can’t enjoy my new home or my new family because these terrible thoughts which have actually made me to go back off work. Once again I’d like to say thanks for people sharing the experiences it’s nice to I’m not alone !

]]> By: Sara A http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/2008/02/24/20/#comment-18400 Sara A Tue, 20 Dec 2011 15:16:46 +0000 http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/?p=20#comment-18400 Hiya! i Havent been on here for about 10months maybe more. i wanted to let anyone who remembers me that im doing it! im getting better! I did everything that i wanted to with all the horrible thoughts etc and it really works :) never thought id stand a chance but hey ho :) hope everyone is ok and good luck! merry xmas! Thankyou for everyone who supported me! Hiya!
i Havent been on here for about 10months maybe more.
i wanted to let anyone who remembers me that im doing it! im getting better!
I did everything that i wanted to with all the horrible thoughts etc and it really works :) never thought id stand a chance but hey ho :)
hope everyone is ok and good luck!
merry xmas!
Thankyou for everyone who supported me!

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